There’s so much going through my mind right now.  

                                                                              So much to say…  

                                                                                                              So much to do…  

But tonight is not the time for any of that.  It’s quiet.  Peaceful.  And I am completely alone.  There is so much in my heart that I will never understand.  It is like a clogged sink… so much goes in, but so little gets processed.  

I wish I could share with the world what’s really inside of me.  

                                                                                                  Share who I really am.  

But if I did that, I’m afraid of what would happen.  I’m afraid of who I really am.  I can’t focus on that, though.  There is more going on inside of me.  There is something so beautiful that compels me forward.  It’s inside of me, but I don’t know where it came from.  

I need to do something.  I can’t help but do something.  I just don’t know what it is yet.  I am seeking… seeking at another crossroads.  

Does everyone experience life this way?  

                                                                                                                       Has everyone felt this before?  

I know which way to choose, but I can’t find the choice.  But I am moving forward.  Always moving forward.  Sometimes I forget that, but in those times when I remember I can stop and think.  

I walk outside.  

                           A cool breeze.  

                                                        No one in sight.  

                                                                                          Just me, but I know that I am in the midst of chaos.  There is a world all around that is working: that is progressing.  There is a plane overhead.  It’s my proof.  I am but a piece of this great puzzle and there are so many people living their own lives right on top of me.  Nothing is guaranteed, and surprises come at any moment.  I know this plane could be on a mission to destroy.  It could use its technology to harm me.  But it wont be today.  Not on a day that I feel like this.  It is one of those days that, even though I am completely awestruck at my place in life and my future endeavors, I feel peace.  

Today there is rest.  But tomorrow…  That’s another story.

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