You're waiting for a calling to go somewhere, but God is calling you to be someone, meaning he is working on your character, but you just want the end result without the work of transformation.
There is a subtle enemy we all face.
My enemy has two faces.
One faces me when I'm around people.
The other faces me when I'm alone.
Shyness and Death.
What is shyness?
Shyness is not quietness. These two are often tied together, but they are not one and the same. Shyness does manifest in quietness, but not all quietness is shyness.
So what is shyness then?
It is social anxiety. A form of fear.
It is an inferiority complex. A false humility.
It is allowing others to be better than you so you can avoid being seen.
It is a fear of failure. Afraid others will laugh at you, mock you, or condemn you.
Shyness is a negative emotion. It needs to be confronted and corrected or it will continue to afflict you.
Shyness manifests in nervousness, which causes clumsiness.
Being clumsy is not positive. It comes from a nervousness, which is attached to roots of pride and self-condemnation.
We fear those around us based on our past hurts, believing they will hurt us in similar ways, which causes an unconscious nervousness to rise within us. This causes a clumsiness to overtake us and makes us awkward and socially inept. The result is shyness. It is our enemy.
Ultimately, the root of shyness is fear.
What is death?
It is a phantom. It is fear of the unknown magnified to its highest level.
It is the opposite of life. It is darkness where life is light.
It is the result of sin. It stings to overcome us.
Death is often forgotten while facing larger pressures.
Hence, when we are around others, we may feel shy or joy, but we often don't worry about death.
Death haunts us when we are alone because death threatens an eternity of absence.
If shyness paralyzes us around people, then death paralyzes us when we're alone.
Ultimately, the root of death is fear.
It is clear now, isn't it?
Our enemy is fear. It nullifies our faith, blinds our reasoning, and binds us in an invisible grasp.
1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.
We are afraid of punishment from others and in death, but this fear represents we haven't yet been perfected in love.
Simply stated- if you fear, you're not in love.
Whose love should we be in?
1 John 4:16
God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.
We are to live in God and his love. Then the opposite remains true. God lives in us.
If perfect love, perfect power, and perfect unity lives in you and you in him, there can never remain any fear in you.
Simply stated- if you live in God's love, fear is no more.
Of course all of this is made possible because of the good news of Jesus Christ.
He became a social outcast for our sake. He died for our sins. He rose for our restored righteousness.
He lived a perfect life, one without shyness or fear of death.
He is the Son of God, raised to the right hand of the Father to plead for us and make us sons of God through the power of the holy Spirit.
Jesus overcame the world and our fears with it.
Now he offers us forgiveness and a new life, one without fear.
A life of love.
To love God and love others as you love yourself.
This is the good news.
Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.
We follow Jesus Christ by surrendering our own lives and picking up our crosses.
We reject the first signs of shyness and fear of the unknown with the truth of God's Word.
When a feeling makes you uncomfortable, believe the greater truth. That feeling is a phantom. It cannot hurt you or remain any longer than you allow it to remain.
Simply stated- you can choose which feelings cling to you.
It takes a conscious decision and using the truth of God's promises to live in the love of God.
When you feel shy, then declare this truth:
I am strong, the Word of God lives in me, and I have defeated the evil one! (1 John 2:14)
When you feel afraid of the unknown, declare this truth:
Neither death nor life can separate me from the love of God in Christ Jesus! (Romans 8:38-39)